Pivot

I was talking about meditation with a friend and I admitted one of my deep, dark secrets which is that I downloaded a meditation app over a year ago and set it up to remind me nightly and I’ve yet to actually use it. 

When I set it up, it asked me what time to send the notification and I chose 9:30 at night. My reasoning was that by 9:30 the kids are asleep and I’m in wind down mode, but the first night I got my reminder, Poppy was refusing sleep and I was in full toddler rage management. When the reminder popped up on my phone I rolled my eyes and that was that. Every night since, at 9:30, my phone encourages me to meditate and I tell it to shut up. 

The really dumb thing is, I told my friend, is I actually do want to meditate. 

“So why don’t you change the time the app sends you the notification?” she asked.  

And I was speechless because the thought had literally never crossed my mind. What I’m doing clearly isn’t working so why not just pivot? It seems so simple and obvious but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t immediately come up with a handful of reasons why I should stick with 9:30 even though I have over a year’s worth of proof that 9:30 is not my prime meditation time. What can I say, change is hard. 

So now I have to come up with a good time to meditate. Mornings are bonkers, and I’m not super into the idea of waking up earlier specifically to meditate (but I’ll consider it if you have a compelling argument for me), but meditating in the afternoon feels weird to me for some reason. Do you meditate? Do you have a set time, or do you go with the flow and meditate whenever it fits into your day?